Solo Porn


Solo porn. Thats what I do now, and I actually really enjoy it. The first video I made was horrible awkward and hilarious as I tried to go back to dub over the sound of roosters crowing in the background. When I began doing the nude photo thing it was always a consideration in the back of my mind. I began by taking solo pornographic stills. Which became quite a chore. Self shooting the quantity of photos I need to in general is hard, now try getting creative with shoving shit up your whoohaa while you do it. Enter video.


Video has been a great way to explore my stunted sexuality in a safe and controlled environment while I make money doing it. Poorly educated shrinks everywhere with a tinge of Christian flavoring would have a field day with this statement. Clearly I just had a fucked up childhood and need help in the form of Jesus or therapy. Maybe both with a side of prozac.


I dunno, you see you really have got to have a solid sense of self to start masturbating on camera. This goes so against everything you grow up learning about what is morally correct in our society about self respect. I’m sure there’s a lot of women out there who do things like this because they don’t have a choice, this isn’t about them. This is about a 30’s something woman who had everything going for her and CHOOSE to do this. Some weird form for personal expression and growth for the sexually harmed and stunted.


For me it came down to a few different things. The first couple of videos I made gave me a real sense of power over the men/women that would be watching them. I really liked that. Safe away in my bedroom I could enjoy experimenting with sex in an untouched way of sorts. Then there WAS the money aspect. I definitely make some money off this. It’s been great. I feel empowered. I have set boundaries for myself and I never do anything I don’t feel comfortable with. My videos are all really vanilla. Just a girl enjoying herself in her bedroom more so than aiming to entertaining men.


At first learning to LOOK at my vagina on camera and listen to the sounds I make durning orgasm and pleasure were extremely difficult. I still have trouble opening up and making sounds freely. And this is something these videos has shown me and I am working on. Something being with other people I have never been able to do. Growth. Growth in strange ways, making solo porn. There is no right or wrong way to better yourself, unconventional yes.


I’ve tried so many things to fix the sexual disfunction in my life, to open myself up, heal wounds. This is doing it. For whatever reason. Putting myself out there, in control, saying hey I’m good enough for your money, but you cant tell me to do anything or touch me and its all MY choice. This has helped me immensely.


So for now while it makes sense and I am gaining from it both in personal growth, and monetary wise I will keep setting my little camera up and having fun. Something I NEVER would have imagined myself doing in a million years. If you have never watched yourself cum on camera you should do it just once (then delete that shit just incase! I once accidentally sent a naked photo to an old neighbor in my contacts lmao she didn’t respond). It’s both terrifying and beautiful the first time, and you learn so much about yourself and what you are missing, what you need, your insecurities…..anyhow just thoughts from he internet stripper ;)

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